Thursday, March 31, 2005
ALL COMMENTS ON MY BLOGG ARE MY OWN THOUGHTS AND ARE SAID WITHOUT PREJUDICE
Easter was quiet this year. Mum and I were both sick. I have the flue and mum had a virus. But we all managed to come together for easter. I wished my partner was here for it, but shit happens. Angel understood it this year cause he got lots of "bunnies" as he calls it.
I can't believe he is almost 4 now. I was looking for birthday pressy ideas for him and I found a few things in Toys 'r' Us. Silly me thought that I would put them on layby. Toys 'r' us no longer do laybys. They said it was an occupational heath issue and they have stopped doing it. The staff memeber I spoke to said it was put in place a few weeks ago and know they are going to be loosing out a fair bit of money especially at Xmas time putting some jobs at risk.
Things are a little uneasy at work as the boss is cutting back people's hours and he is doing the shifts. This week my partner offered me double my wages to stay home and get better. It was tempting but my stupid work ethic said to go to work. The boss said I should have taken my partner's offer.
Some people if they are smart enough might get the hint that I am less than happy with them. Advioding them to all points. I am extremely tempted to change my mobile and home numbers soon. I have changed msn again too loose certian people and want to change a few other things.
I am a little pissed off with a certain "mate" telling me how I am ruining my life by being happy and going to be moving interstate. And at the end of this year it is going to be officially announced about our engagemnet. Also been telling me this is all too soon after someone else and thinks that I am not doing this for the right reasons. If there is one thing I hate it is people telling me how I am ment to do things in life and how I should be emotionally. This certain "mate" has also been telling other men my msn addy and telling them I am single and needs a quick fuck and various other bits of prize crap. The more that I have ignored this person the more the behaviour is getting worse.
The one thing I love about having a pre paid mobile is that I can decide when I have run out of credit. lol. According to some people I have been out of credit for a number of weeks now. Dam shame. lol. My partner and I have decided that when I go away I am changing my number and only letting close friends and family know it. Then I will not be hasseled by this sort of bullshit.
Apart from that there is nothing new. Looking foward to tax time cause I can pay out some bills and have some money back each week. With the extras that I am paying on some bills I am down $90 per week. I know that does not sound a lot to some people, but when you are on centerlink payments that is alot. I will get my tax return, a back date of centerlink payments and backdated rent. The joys of not getting maintance. So far in this financial year I have recieved just over $600 in maintaince when both centerlink and SAHT have worked out that I have revieved just under $3,000. I love Johnny Howards thing of cracking down on dead beat dads. I am still waiting for my case to have some sort of aciton. It has been sitting in the "special" section for nearly 2 years and nothing is being done about it. I just look foward to my bonus savings account at the end of the finaical year. That is what I can it now a days. The lack of maintance and the back payment I get is my savings account.
It would be nice if the people that owe me some cash would pay back. I have been hounding them but they come back with "when I have some cash I will pay you back" In other words. Fuck you your not getting it so suffer. The money that people owe could just about clear up all my debts. I can breath finacially. I can actually offord to go out and take Angel places and get him stuff he wants. Not just stuff he needs.
Finally had something done about my electricity problem. Someone came out and I had one of the power supplies blown. And in the other supply port (or something like that) I had a wasp nest and mud in there. The guys said that is probably what is causing my power dropages and the high bills. EtSA have now put me on a long term payment plan as they have seen my high bills. So I will never have my power cut off again. Although I do laugh and say that the only candle lit dinner I have had was with my son over frozen pizza. The girl on the phone at ETSA nearly feel off her chair when she saw my bill went from the usual $220 to $560. She nearly feel off, I won't say what I did. lol. The loan sharks love me cause with bills like that it is when I have to go to them and get a loan to pay it.
Was watching a show about classes a while ago. I am still figuring out my class. It bassically said poor people buy stuff. Anything they find cheap and at garage sales. Middle class people buy things with liablities. High liablities like cars and boats. It gives them a reason to work harder. And the rich buy assets. Houses, stocks investments. I don't buy stuff, not liabilities and definatly not assets. So I think I belong in less than poor section. lol I buy necessaties.
Well time to get dressed and buy my necessaties of food shopping.
ttfn
xxoo
Saturday, March 12, 2005
ALL COMMENTS ON MY BLOGG ARE MY OWN THOUGHTS AND ARE SAID WITHOUT PREJUDICE
I have been cutting myself away from a lot of people these past two weeks. It is kinda working. It is sorta easing my stress levels a bit. My stress levels have been extremely high and I did not need any more shit in my life. The behaviour of one person is getting worse. Not sure how to combat that one just as yet but that is on the backburner of things to do at the moment. I had more important things to do like save the place that I am living in. Yes it is a shit hole, but it is still a roof over my head.
It is good that one of my closest friends is a nightowl too as neither of us are getting much sleep so it gives me someone to chat to at ngiht. I have been doing 3 - 4 hours sleep a night for the past few weeks and my friend has been doing the same and even less.
My partner has been worried about me doing this, but I tell him not to fret. He keeps wanting to do so much for me but I have this stupid pride thing and say no. I have gotten myself out of this sort of mess before and I will again. The thing that is really killing me is that fact that I had to get a loan to clean up some mess from my ex. The loan repayments are my bill money. And the fact that I am $400 down in income for December has not helped either. And knowing that some smart fart wanted to take my income away is a nice feeling too. Jezz wonder why I am not doing so well on the happy stakes. I am having a very clear picture who this person is that dobbed me in. I guess he figured he could not cut one source of income so he would try the other source. But since that has not worked, he is trying the first source again. I am keeping this suspion very quiet only 3 people know who I suspect and I am keeping it that way to see how things pan out. You would expect this behaviour from a jilted lover or friendship gone wrong, but this person is neither. If it is the person that I am thinking of I know what this "payback" is for and I could not give a shit. I saved my own arse not his.
Angel is doing excellent with his stuffs. We went for a few appointments last week. hearing is perfect (like I suspected) but they had to make sure and the only thing that he is behind in now is his drawing. We are near the top of the list for a speech pathologist so that will help to bring things along better. My baby is now a big boy. He is just about out of nappies.
Now that he is a big boy he is having the fear that mummy does not love him anymore. He needs that constant reassurance. It has eased of a little since I put a photo of him beside my bed. But it is still there a little.
Strangest thing happened the other day. Mum got a loan car and it was the same as someone else's that used to come around. Angel thought that this person was back. I thought that Angel had forgotten this person. And funny enough my neighbour also thought this person was back. Mum got to hear what it is like when I do have male company around. The banging, the crashing, the slamming of doors, loud music, loud talking, etc. It is a real bugger that my neighbour did not know when my partner was around as he walked here from where he was staying. Only one night my neighbour could tell as there was a car in the drive way. I can't wait to move. Whether it is through the landlord or interstate either way I can't wait.
Mum was told to sell her car quick smart. The car is only 6 months old and has rust throughout the doors. She paid $16,500 for a brand new car expecting nothing to go wrong and bam. So once the car is fixed up she is going to trade it in and get another car.
Well time to get back and do some more work. I am missing my ebaying a lot, but the break from that is nice. Good thing I picked up a few bargins before the restrictions on my account. lol
ttfn
xxoo
Thursday, March 03, 2005
ALL COMMENTS ON MY BLOGG ARE MY OWN THOUGHTS AND ARE SAID WITHOUT PREJUDICE
The one thing that really pissed me off yesterday was an acusation/assumption that was made. Most people would think the centerlink thing would piss me off, but it was the attack on me and my partner that really pushed the buttons. Not sure if it is an attack on me and my past or people thought it was just funny making up shit about a person they don't know and can not defend themselves.
The assumption was that my partner was going to cause physical harm to another party. Biggest load of shit that I have heard this year. My partner knows of the person that he is "meant" to threaten to cause physical harm. He has never met this person.
Yes my partner has been trained to kill throught the army and the navy, but he is gental as they come. I know the only time that he would hurt anyone is if anyone physically hurt Angel and I. But that is like most sane people that want to protect their loved ones. He would never physically hurt or threaten anyone over simple things.
And also wondering what are these people trying to say about me. What I can not shake my past off and be with a nice guy for a change. I admit I have been with some very shady characters before, one person even commented that is was a good thing I got out when I did with one person. I am still not sure what they ment about that.
The grapevine is so fucked up. No wonder things get messy. Everyone has to be in everyone else's business and if there is nothing to add, make shit up cause people never compaire notes. Then when people do compaire notes and people get confrounted the whole cycle starts again. I confronted the person that apparently made this crap up in the first place and now they are all in a tissy and throwing legal terms around. I am leaving the two people in question to there own devices, but if there is any more crap said about me, my partner, or family then the fur is definatly going to fly.
TTFN
xxoo
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
ALL COMMENTS ON MY BLOGG ARE MY OWN THOUGHTS AND ARE SAID WITHOUT PREJUDICE
Do you ever have one of those days where you want to tell the world to fuck off, shut up, grow up, mind your own business and leave you alone? There were definalty moments like that today.
I fully enjoyed comming home, shutting the door, spending time with Angel and chatting to my partner. Wish he was here to chat too, but at least there is the phone.
But some good did come from the day. I was able to chat to someone and get a few things cleared up. Another case where everyone has there little bit to say and was not able to chat to the person involved direct. Too many people stiring the pot. Was good to get a few things cleared up for a change.
I am on a mission as well. To find out which arsehole it was that tried to dobb my into centerlink. Pity there trick did not work, cause I have nothing to hide from them. Just caused a little inconvince for the day. I have narrowed the list down to a few people that are that petty to do that shit. And if it is the person that I have as number 1 suspect now it would explain a few things.
Thank god I am home tomorrow. Spending time with my Angel and having some relax time. As well as do the usual domestic crap.
Today has taken a lot out of me so time for sleepies.
TTFN
xxoo
